19) Bad feeling

What wrong with me
I mess up anything I do
Most of the time it does
Not change anything for me
But when it involves others
I always feel bad
I think why I am like this
It’s the worst feeling that
That one can get in his life
Sometime I feel so bad
That I wish upon myself the worst
Things that no one wishes on
Ones self, pain and wishing of death
And then I remember it's only a mistake